Refresh

I've felt a bit off during the past month.  Physically I've seemed to be lacking in energy, with the normal burst that I usually am able to summon escaping my grasp.  Mentally, I haven't felt as sharp either, displaying a definite lack of focus.  At first I chalked it up to a combination of age and over training, so I took a day of here and there in hopes of that making a difference.  This helped, but before long I'd felt the same lethargy.  I also had some blood work done (only chemistries because I can do those myself), with each test result falling within the normal ranges as I'd expected.  

Work has been sort of "ehh" lately.  I've resigned myself to the fact that I'm not going anywhere with my current company, so I have turned my focus on slowly working toward a new career which I hope to achieve by taking some online classes.  I still am going to keep my eyes open for other positions, but I realize that even with experience, without a B.S. /B.A degree, my options are a bit limited unless I know someone (if anyone knows someone, I'll be eternally grateful lol).  Most HR people won't take a second look at my resume once they only see an Associates degree.  This has definitely gotten me frustrated, but I try not to let it get to me as best as I am able although it has proved to be challenging.  

Thankfully my holiday is coming up at the end of this week.  That will be ten days where I don't have to be at work dealing with that nonsense and ten days where I can relax outside the normal confines of my life.  This trip shouldn't be too crazy, we are heading to Iceland and Ireland.  We have planned some things to do in each place, but nothing of any consequence, so we won't be burning the candle at both ends. 

Hopefully I will feel recharged when I get back so I am able to prep for some tournaments.  Coming into the year, I knew I wouldn't be able to compete as much as I had in the past, but I had hoped to have at least one more competition under my belt by this point.  There is one local tournament mid July and one In Massachusetts at the end of the July and it would be nice to be able to compete in each.  I get antsy without something to work toward and this might be contributing to the lack of focus and energy which I referenced earlier.